Melly’s Room ^^

Last Sunday i went to Buddhist Fellowship (BF) to hear some talk after lots of weeks of laziness :p.

The topic is about meditation. What is the purpose of meditation, how meditation can help you in achieving wisdom, if not enlightenment and so on.

I get a lot of information from this talk, although after 3/4 part of that talk, my eyes and body can’t be compromised anymore and i need to move here and there to not fall asleep :p.

As you all know, our minds always move, jump from this event to another event, plan for this and after that, think of the cause and the effect and so on. If you don’t believe it, try to be quiet for 1 minute. Within that 1 minute, maybe you will think of “hey, what is that sound, what will i eat later, what movie do i want to watch tonight, who should i ask for date, hmm i want to buy that shoes” and a lot of other thoughts that will come across your mind.

One of my colleagues often takes MC as she periodically gets headache. Her doctor informed her that she has a lot of thought, she thinks too much. Well, can’t blame her for that :p.

There are 2 techniques of meditation, one is samatha and another one is vipassana. Samatha meditation is a way where we focus our minds in one object. Any object will do, but usually people will use their breath as the object as it’s convenient, you bring your breath to wherever and whenever you go.

With samatha meditation, we force our minds to only focus on our breath (if breath is the object). If our minds wander while we meditate, force it back to the breath, until one point, our minds will get used to it.

For vipassana meditation, (i quote this from wiki as i don’t really remember this part) we aimed at developing insight and wisdom through seeing the true nature of reality.

The speaker mentioned that to practice vipassana meditation, at least we need to learn or understand dhamma and we need to still our minds to make it easier for us to absorb or gain wisdom. So the basic requirements for vipassana meditation are the understanding of dhamma and the practice of samatha meditation.

Well, i think so far i only get chance to practice samatha meditation, but i also don’t do it in regular basis, so i’m still far far away from enlightenment :p.

Actually hearing this talk directly will be better to understand the basic of meditation as i’m not too good in explaining this. I’m still learning and this is the first step for me to keep and share the knowledge that i get from the talk.

I found this news about one of my favourite author, Michael Chricton, in MSN homepage..

I still remember the first time i read his book..

It’s Timeline and I read it while i was in High School, thanks to my school-heaven’s library :p.

Exciting story, full of action, imagination, thriller and adventure make me love his book since then :).

He’s not only good at sci-fi story, try to read Congo, a novel about Gorillas that made me cry after I finish reading it.

If you still don’t know him, i’m sure most of you have watched Jurassic Park, dinosaurs-theme films adapted from his famous novel with the same title.

It’s sad that he has gone now, but his works will still be appreciated and remembered by many people years ahead..

Uda bbrapa lama ga update blog, eh ternyata ada themes baru :D.

Klo sempat baru kutak katik lebih lanjut d.

Have a nice day all.

Can not complain, will not complain..

Everyone wants the best for themselves..

Have to understand them..

I have chosen this.. Will not complain..

Hiks..

Bentar lg uda mo 23, arrgghh uda tua bgt, haha..

Mau ga mau jadi refleksi, selama taon2 belakangan ini uda ngapain aja, apa g uda lebih baik dari sebelumnya..

Jadi inget dulu, sm nyokap sering dibilangin, jgn kayak anak kecil, harus dewasa, jgn suka maen2 n reaksi g saat itu cuma nyengir + sebel, kayakny dl mikir "Emang g kurang dewasa yah??" hehe..

Gimana sih jadi dewasa itu, apa enakny jadi orang dewasa? Beban n tanggungjawab bertambah, masalah bertambah n keriput jg bertambah haha..

Tp semua ga bisa dihindari, lahir, sakit, tua n meninggal smua itu hukum alam, kita ga bisa mutar balik waktu, ga bisa jadi lebih muda lg. Satu2nya yang bisa kita lakukan cuma menyesuaikan pola pikir kita dengan keadaan kita sekarang.

Klo kita ga bisa menyesuaikan pikiran kita dgn situasi n kondisi, kita sendiri yang bakal menderita. Melekat dgn tubuh fisik kita yang terus berubah n ga mau menerima klo tubuh semakin lemah, melekat dgn memory indah sewaktu muda n terus menerus mikirin itu sehingga kita ga bs jalanin hari2 ke depan, semua itu ga bakal bikin kita bahagia..

Waktu kita bisa menerima diri apa adanya, menerima perubahan yang terjadi di sekeliling maupun di dalam diri kita, baru kita bisa merasa damai dan bahagia.. ^^

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Ngomong2 soal jadi tua, kayakny g merasa klo stamina g semakin menurun. Klo dulu waktu kuliah sering banget bergadang n masih merasa fresh, skarang ga bisa kyk gitu lg. Jam 11, jam 12 deh paling telat, g uda harus tidur, mata ga bisa diajak kompromi lg, parah deh haha..

Apa kurang olahraga ya? Hmm.. Habis kerja aja uda capek, gimana mo olahraga? Sabtu n minggu hari istirahat sedunia, rasany ga rela pake hari2 itu buat kegiatan2 laen hehe..

Nanti coba diatur gimana deh, walopun rasanya dalam waktu dkt olahraga g paling cuma jalan kaki dr MRT sampe rumah habis pulang kerja hehe..

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What else that i want to write it here..

Kayakny banyak yang mau diceritain, tp ga tau mo mulai dari mana sampe otak jadi blank he..

I think i’ll just stop right here.

Wishing all of us a happy and peaceful life..

May all beings be well and happy..

Today, i think i’m not doing so well at work.. Feel lazy, sleepy, holiday disease hoho..

But there’s not much to do also. Just a few people looking for a job in the end of the year. Mostly will plan what will they do to spend their holiday. So.. yah.. i’ll just enjoy this peaceful days before go through riot next year ^.^

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When i come back from work, in MRT i saw this little girl, maybe just 7-8 years old ‘chop’ the seat for her mother. Her mother told her to sit, don’t mind her. But she insisted of giving that seat to her mother and finally her mother sit there. This little girl smiled and looked very satisfied.

I’m so touched looking at this little girl. She’s still very young yet she can respects her mother that well. Hope i can do the same for my parents. Of course not just ‘chop’ seats for them, but also do anything to make them happy.

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Umm.. There’s still 4 more days to 21. Can’t wait.. Feel that these few days passed really slow… Come on come on hehe..

This blog is confusing isn’t it? Haha.. just want to chit chat a little about my day, if there’s something interesting i’ll share it next time.

Have a happy holiday..

Finally.. I’ve given the answer..

Ya.. ya.. ya.. I don’t get it this time, deep in my heart i already knew it..

It’s just.. so hard to accept it when u expect something too much and you don’t get it, the disappoinment hurt you deeper..

BUT, enough for me to mourn it, i must get up..

I’ll look for another chance, another opportunity and i know this time that i’ll do better than before..

I want to say thanks and sorry to people that give the opening for me, thanks for giving me the opening, i’m sorry that i can’t get it this time, i’m sorry that i don’t use it well.

I have learn and sure, i will do better next time.

I’m waiting.. waiting.. really hope that i can get that chance,

although i looked that i don’t really think about it but actually i do, i really do..

They haven’t call me, i don’t know whether i get that chance or not, pleasee.. call me, just inform me so that i don’t wait in this uncertainty situation..

I know that i’ll do very well if i get that chance, just give me chance..

Hiks.. i just can’t stop blame myself, blame my stupidity, blame my ‘kepo’ acts, ‘kepo’ words..

I still hope.. hope..

Internet yang g pk skarang TOP deh, haha…

Soalny bisa buka blog temen2, klo yang dulu g tau knapa ada yang bisa ada yang ngga, skarang bisa huraayy!! huehue..

Segini dl deh, g mau browsing2 blog org dl hehe..